I have been having a super hard week and honestly have not been prioritizing my private time with God, studying scripture and indulging in spiritual self-care in general.  After another long day of doctor appointments, I finally was able to lay down on my bed and quickly decided that worship is what I would focus on at that time.  As I closed my eyes, I take a deep breath and all of the sudden I can remember reading… View Post

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What kind of friend do you see yourself as?  Loyal, helpful?  Dependable, generous?  Perhaps you are all of these attributes and more.  Many of us, like myself, go above and beyond when it comes to those that we care about and are friends with.  Because of the fact that we are so reliable, we are usually the first ones that our friends run to first, when something is going wrong.  They see us as that first line of defense when it comes to getting the help that they need.

It might not be easy to admit, we also have those friends that don’t do the same for us. View Post

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I have to face it, everything about 2017 was more than a challenge.  I don’t want to say that it was the worst year yet – because it wasn’t, but it was probably a close second, possibly third.  Usually, I am able to figure out what lessons I have to learn in any misfortune that comes to me.  But, to be honest, 2017 was very unsettling and upsetting for me, emotionally and physically.  As I took a look back these last few days trying to figure out everything, I questioned myself – How have I changed??  I already know that everything in my life will never be perfect, and that there will be struggles in every season, but what did I do to bring about such negativity and selfish people into my life??  Also, why was I unable to let that emotional baggage all go?  Why can’t certain soul drainers not let me go?  I always thought that I was a strong person inside, and perhaps that’s how it may seem to the outside world looking in – but in my heart I’ve just been fragile as an old egg shell, waiting on a person to step on me hard enough that I would actually break for good. View Post

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It’s funny how fast this year is passing us by.

I mean, it’s Monday night,December 11, 2017… and it feels as though just yesterday was October or even September.  At least for me.

As I washed my face this morning, I started to reflect on life.  I looked into the mirror and noticed how much I’ve changed.  Physically, emotionally, spiritually.

I have to be honest, some of the things I saw, I did not like.  The stress that I have been through the last few years- all of it shows clearly on my face.  Bruising, bumps, extra weight and various lines course through my cheeks, lips and under my eyes, revealing every negative thought that I have held in, and that I have carried with me for years.

Yet people say I look so youthful, happy and free.

Boy, I sure don’t feel that way.

Yet, there was something else I saw while staring at myself in the bathroom mirror.  It presented to me some positivity that totally changed my outlook for the rest of the morning.  Most of it was hope.

Hope for a better day, hope for a better life, hope for a better tomorrow.

I then recognized faith, which helped me get up this morning, reminding me not to give up.  I also saw love, the love of life, and of my family and friends that I could recognize was looking back at me through my deep brown eyes.  I could now see how much that I am so loved, and how I am so blessed.

And with those reflections in front of me, I had to smile.  This year sure has gone by fast, but that only means my best moments are at a closer reach than they were before.

 

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